An empty feeling

I keep waiting for something to happen. I keep looking for a sign. Anything to help me feel like my decision to walk away from her was the right one. I have to keep reminding myself that she was the one that walked on me first. She decided she didn't want to come back to our relationship. Eight weeks into her training she realized something, something I will probably never know, but she realized that I wasn't worth coming back too. That I wasn't worth loving anymore. Whether it was something else, or someone else, she decided that she didn't love me anymore. She told me that I shouldn't wait for her. She was on supposedto be in training for twelve weeks. She couldn't even make it through those weeks before she realized she didn't care for me anymore. What am supposed to do. How do you react to something like that. How do you accept the fact that the person you were supposed to spend the rest of your life with no longer wants to be with you. I keep telling myself that I did the right thing by walking away. She's hurt me so much already. She's always the one breaking things off. But like a fool I always take her back. This time, I don't think she's coming back. Even if I were to wait, I don't think I will ever hear from her again. She's made up her mind. I have to accept that she no longer feels the same way as she did. I have to realize that I was not at fault. She was the one that walked out on me. She was the one that couldn't keep her promise. She couldn't stay commuted to me. She fell out of live with me. Again. She purposely broke my heart. Again. She willingly hurt me. Again. This has to be the last time. Ask yourself, would you want to be with someone who's hurt you over and over in he past? Would you trust someone who's left you time and time again? I don't think anyone would say yes. I think it's time I stood up for myself. Everyone deserves to be happy. For all the happy times we had together, all the bad times over shadow it. Maybe you will never believe that I could find someone better than you. But I'm already a step ahead. Because I will never let you hurt me again. I will never let you break my heart again. I know somewhere out there someone is waiting for me. Someone who will love me more than you could. I can't be angry. I have I accept that I wasn't the person for you. I just wish you went about letting me know that in a different, more kind and respectful way. After everything I did for you, I think that was the least that I deserved. But because you handled things the way you did, immature and disrespectul, than I have no other choice than to just walk away from everything we had. No, I will not think fondly on the time we shared. I will only think of how I regret wasting your time.